What if everything is like this for you? How to stop searching for yourself and start living

We know that it's wrong to lie to others, but we deceive ourselves every day, convincing ourselves that "we're not that great," and when we receive compliments, we find hundreds of excuses not to accept them. We always need something... else, besides ourselves; we set goals, we strive for them, and our life only has meaning in this process... This book suggests stepping away from accepted standards and knowledge about how to "properly" live one's life and what is commonly desired. The author shares an honest story of her life and the experience of acknowledging all parts of herself to achieve true wholeness and regain the ability to choose. "I realized that constant self-improvement only cripples people. All my tantric experiences, mountain climbs, and witnessing sunrises at Machu Picchu have led me to the understanding that searching for oneself and chasing some ideal is essentially a denial of oneself because if you're searching for something, it means you think you don't have it. But you exist." Masha Chamkina