And I Don't Love You

Do you know this feeling? For the first time in your life, you go to speed dating, sit down at another table, and suddenly come face to face with your past. It sits across from you, looking at you with caramel-like eyes, and that gaze hits you hard. All eleven years suddenly tumble into an abyss, and you are eighteen again, sitting in the back of his clunker, telling him that you love him, and in response, you hear "and I don't love you." A terrible feeling. But Ellie is already an adult; she'll manage somehow.